so much is on my mind

i haven't been able to sort through my own thoughts lately

i have so many things trying to go on in my head at once 

i feel like i need a secretary for my thoughts

facebook as sad as it sounds

thinking about my school work

wanting to just go to sleep

wanting to go back in time

to those summers that seemed like things couldn't get any better
just other useless things& 

 to those who think i'm weird for blogging, or rather posting my feelings on blogs can suck my dick and continue on their path of conforming to what is normal.

 my life is probably more exciting and entertaining than yours.

i feel like my mind is back tracking

to when i wasn't able to have just a single thought

i was longing for unobtainable things

my crazy brain that i wasn't able to suppress

i get in these ruts

but i'll just have listen to trevor hall and practice some more buddhism 

honestly, my body is exhausted my mind isn't quite on the same level.
i have class tomorrow at 9. it's my most interesting class but the earliest, which complicates things when i get to bed so late. i wish i could turn off my computer i do. but i cant. or i wont. but i should.


i seem to ramble a lot.
i'm feeling anxious
jessica keeps moving on the bed
when my body is relaxed
im irritated.

settle
down
little
one.

i kind of hope nobody reads my blog because most people only know me on a superficial level but then again if you can't handle dis shit then you can't handle MUAH. tehehe
i haven't been serious in a really long time, things are getting weird
i'm going to sleep.
peace